It Feels Like

We're starting dating again.



I'm going to be more honest

with what I feel

and be more firm

with what I want.

He should be one person

who I can be comfortable with.

Afterall,

He's the person I want with me

as I live through my years.

When you love someone,

you just love that person.

How am I supposed to explain that?

Just what am I to do for you to believe me?

It hurts to be doubted like this.

I'm dumb.

So it's really no wonder

why I can't do things properly.

I had a long dream..

I was traveling
by foot.
I was searching for something
I don't know.

With no destination,
I kept walking.
A lot of different people walked with me
but with their own path to take;
we parted ways.

Place by place,
from cities to countries,
I walk aimlessly.

Amidst the crowd,
one tall person stood out.
Without knowing why,
I chased his back.

I don't know who he is
but just like a kid, I followed him.
He doesn't have to know me, He doesn't have to meet me,
I just want to walk behind him.

At one moment,
I lost him.
I ran around to look for him.
A hand from behind stopped me.

The me who was always looking
at his back,
is surprised to see him smile
for the first time.

He asked me about "that" thing I was searching for.
I don't know what my answer was
or that if we're even looking for the same thing
but since then,
He never left my side.

Every time I stop to wait,
He waits with me.
When I get tired, he lifts me up
and carry me on his shoulders.

Walking with him
this time not behind him.
Through the travel,
His smile is the warmest cuddle.

I wonder if I had slept more,

would we have parted ways

just like everybody else?

Or will we have found

"that" thing we're searching for?

I try not to think about it but..

There are times like this
when I want to reach out and touch your face.

Nights like this
when I want to lie down and see you next to me.

"Soon, we will."
Is what we said.

But I wonder
when will soon be.