"I Told You So."

He makes me appreciate myself more..

Makes me think like I can do even more things than I thought I can..

Makes me feel I'm enough and yet can still be better..


My dream hinted me..
And stubborn little me didn't listen..

I Don't Like Seeing Dogs

It makes me miss my babies

I want to hug them so badddd

It's Thanksgiving!

 Happy Turkey Day!! 

We don't really celebrate thanksgiving
Back home so I'm really fine
With it just being a normal day. :)


But somehow,
I'm feeling lonely..

I don't know.

Baaaah! Whatever!

Imma eat and drink my heart out! (๑ゝڡ◕๑) 

I Want My Baby With Me

I want to hug her

Pet her

Dote on her.


Everynight,
I wish I could be there
To sleep with her.

Everyday,
I wish I could hear her bark
And see her smile.


Everynight and everyday,

I miss her.

They're Trying To Trick Me

Into signing papers.

I was in an office-like room
With a men in suit sitting across from me.

They said they're just papers for medical examination.
They thought I won't read them.
But I did.
I always do.

I can't remember the exact words
But somewhere in the papers,
It says something about
Them owning my organs.

I didn't sign the papers.

I ran to my friends
Who were in different office-like rooms
Holding the same kind of papers
Completely oblivious
To what's written on them.

I told them not to sign the papers.
They gave me a weird look.
And while I'm quite unsure whether they believed me,
We walked away from that place.

We head off to our apartments,
But before I got to mine,
I noticed that those guys were onto us.

I ran to their apartments
To warn them.
Thats when I found out,
They signed the papers.

I told them its going to be fine.
And that they should go.
Quick.
I went to meet the guys
Who're just outside the apartment complex
About to go in.

I ran to them hoping to buy my friends
More time to escape.

But I got bribed to going back to their office
By a crispy fried chicken and gravy.

I Was At My Old School

Everyone is in a hurry to escape

Apparently, the the news said that
We would get attacked.

Me and a few students are in a hurry
Packing up stuff
While the others were already outside
The open basketball court
Shouting "Don't bother! Leave those things!
And hurry up!!"

We didn't.
We ran out with our heavy backpacks.
As we were in that open court,
We heard fighter planes high above us.

And they dropped bombs like nothing.

We ran far away from the school building
But I guess not far away enough,
Glass shards and some debris came over flying.
They hit me in the legs, at my back, and to my face
As I looked behind, There were less of us now.

I ran and ran..
Mornings and evenings came.
Walking and looking around,
The world seems busy.
I kept walking..
With that big heavy backpack on.
Scared and all alone trying to get home.

But I didn't know where home was.

Two Wonderful Dreams

My cousin cooked
Some kind of oden
For me and my brother

It was sooo good.

The fishcakes soaked in the
Flavor of the dashi.
The dashi just a little bit salty,
I can't really explain
but it was so soo good. ( ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ·̫ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ )

I could eat this forever!

I told him he should be a chef. (っ˘ڡ˘ς)



---- I woke up. Went back to sleep and my dreams changed ----



I was in the middle of packing up
To escape town with all the other residents.

There is this creature,
A monster, evil as they call it.
They said it would kill people
And that it would annihilate the town.

Keyword there "would"
They never actually saw it destroy
Or kill anyone.

In the middle of running away,
The creature appeared before us.
It was huge hound looking creature
Dark and somewhat shadowy
Almost mythical.

The creature jumped at someone
Roaring loud.
As it attempts to bite her,
I called its attention towards me.
It ran and jumped at me
knocking me over to the ground.

The other residents, alarmed,
Raised their hunting rifle aiming for the creature
Waiting for the perfect time to shoot.

They have guns, and yet
They were telling me, yelling;
"Kill it."

The creature, sensing danger,
Roared even louder.
As it attempts to bite off my arm,
I hugged it.

I was crying and hugging and petting it.

"It's okay.. It's okay.. I won't hurt you.."

It was still.
Howling softly as if it's crying with me.

The shadowy thing envelops it
And the creature changed its form
Into a dog. But not quite.

It was puppy small
Black and dark fur
With two big marble like eyes
Mouth a little bigger than normal dogs have
And a lot of pointed crocodile teeth.

It's really cute.
I took it home and cares for it.
My dogs are somewhat in the middle of
Wanting to play with it and cautious scared of it.
But it just gave them the
"I ain't playing with you kids. I'm not a dog." look

And when it's hungry,
It would call my attention
And opens its mouth wide open
As if telling me to put food in it.

So I grabbed its bowl,
And head off to the kitchen to get food.
But
I stopped and realized
I have no idea what kind food that creature eats.

There's This Girl

A good friend of mine.

Everyone loves her

And so do I.

I wasn't really liked

But I have her

When I was threatened,

When I was hurt,

She was there for me.

Always there for me

I'd cry

and she comforts me

When I was stabbed

Over and over

When my blood were all over the room

Through all my scars she was there

Always there

Because it was her

The threats

The hurt

The stabs

It was all her

And now that I know,

She's not afraid anymore

Of doing all those to my face

She went from backstabbing

To straight up stabbing and cutting me

While maintaining her

Amiable and lovable image

That everyone adores.

After multiple stabs and cuts,

Only then did I realize

It was all a dream

But knowing did not help.

Everytime I try to wake up,

I'd open my eyes

With myself lying on the bed

With her standing at the door

Knife in her hand

Same thing

Over and over

Stabbed.

Cut.

Blood spilling.

I tried escaping

And she wouldn't let me.

Before The Day Ends

I'll share this pleasing dream I had

I went up to a store looking place
But its not a store.. (I don't really get it)

There were people inside but nevermind them.
Because There were dogs and I was petting them
Happily petting them.

And when I had my fill of petting,
A well known European chef went up to me
Holding a tray of chocolates
And asked me to taste test them.

They were chocolate bars
With red foil looking sheets
Which tasted fruity (yes. I have sense of taste in my dreams.lol.)
Something like raspberry.

Not to sound ungrateful but
I don't think I liked it very much..

Maybe it's the chocolate?
Or maybe the raspberry?
mmmm.. both? of them together?

Then another chef came
Holding his own tray of desserts
That I have to taste.

Then another.

And another.

I think there were 6-8 chefs
With each their own tray of desserts
That I had to try.

Then I woke up
From a literally sweet dream.

So... There.. I said it.

I don't think it went well..

But it at least did not go as bad as I thought it would.


I don't know how he could be so understanding and patient with me.

Though he said he didn't really love me,
I know what I said hurt him.

And despite the hurt,
despite all my selfishness,

despite my terrible reason for staying,

He pat my head
and said;
"It's okay to ask for help."

I don't deserve him.



I won't ever forget this.
And someday, I hope to repay him.

I pray he finds someone
who he will love dearly
and who will love him
with her all.

I'm An Idiot

It'll hurt.

But this is for the best.

He deserves honesty. I'll give him that.

A little too late

But please,

No more running away.

Tomorrow..

I'm scared.

But I'll face it.

I deserve whatever pain will come.

Aaaand. I Shut Down.

I'm done with myself.