Can A Comet Please Hit Me In The Face?

Or should I just bury myself alive?

Can someone just please erase meeee

See?

I knew it.

What excuse did you come up this time?

Scary to talk huh?

Makes your stomach churn.

Well, again, it's all you.
You did all that to yourself.

Either you talk right now
and work something out.

Or.

Live the rest of your life feeling bad.

Honestly though,
I suggest to just keep things to yourself.

You don't need more people feeling bad.
You, alone, hurting is already enough.

Stop trying to bring him down with you.
It will just hurt him.
Stop trying to talk to him about it
just so you can make yourself feel better.

That's just selfish.


But then again, that's all you're good at;
Being selfish.

I See You're Planning To Talk Tonight

I doubt you'll do it though.

Because I know you..
You try and tell yourself
You're headstrong and brave and all that.
But I know you..
You're a coward.

And the situation you're in right now
Is one proof of that.

It Was A Dark Evening..

I was alone in a house I don't recognize.

In that dream, that house was mine.


I heard a noise.

And the next thing I knew
I was held by a man
With a knife pointed at my throat.

He won't tell me what he wants
He just threatened me.
I'm dead if I dare call the police.

Someone came home.
No idea who. Never met before.
But in that dream, I know him.
And he helped me escape.

I ran to my neighbor.
A sweet old couple.
I was a mess.
In between my sobs,
I kept telling them to call 911.

"Please, pleaseee..
call 911..
call 911.."

I kept saying over and over..

Wrote an address I don't recognize
In a handwriting I don't recognize
But in that dream, that was my address
and so was my handwriting.

I wrote it over and over..
Even tried to carve it on their wooden floor with the pen.
So I'm sure they won't forget even if they lose all the papers
But.
He found me.

I didn't know if they made the call
But when I looked at them
They're dead.
The sweet old couple; dead. Because of me.

He took me back to my house
The guy that tried to help me was still there.
He was also a mess.
But thank goodness alive.

We were both hostages.

He wouldn't tell us what he wants from us.
He just held us there.
Prisoners.

We tried to fight back.
But before we get to,
I woke up.

Think. Think. Think.

What do you want?

Should you really go for it?

Think about it. 

Is it worth breaking precious love ones' hearts for?

Of course not, idiot.

Everyone knows that when given a choice,

you choose to save the lives of many over a single person's life.

Especially when you did this to yourself.

Whatever bad things that's going to happen,

However lonely you get,

You deserve every bit of it.

Don't drag other people's happiness down.

Own up to your actions.

Think. And stop being stupid.

Stop thinking about what you would've done differently.

Stop thinking about what could be.

It's done.

And you can't have what you want.

You don't deserve to anyways.

The only thing you should be thinking right now

is how to make and keep him happy.

Think.

And act quick.

REMEMBER THIS

And remember it well.

When tears are about to fall,

carve this into your dumb little brain;


"You're the one doing the hurt.

You have no right to cry."

Gosh Darn It.

You're doing it all wrong!

He's not happy!

He is not happy!!

You said you'll make him happy

What in the world are you doing!!?!

He's not happy.

Make. Him. Happy.

NOW.

Don't Cry.. Don't Cry..

It's okay..

You're okay..

I'm A Sucker For His Family

Sighh..

I just love his family.

I don't deserve them

I Want To Tell Him

I want to tell him

I don't want rings

at least not yet..

I want to tell him



sighh.. What am I doing...

Sheep

I miss her.

Every night I go to bed, I think of her..

I'm all warm and tucked in bed

while she sleeps alone on the kitchen floor.

Everyday, she gets fed..
But with food and with no hugs.

When I call I hear her bark,
So loud to make sure I'll know
She hears me too.
"I'm right here. Pet me! Take me!

Here! Here!!

I'm right here!"

I see her
through a cellphone screen
but she can't see me back

She doesn't know
and she won't understand

Just why I suddenly stopped showing up.

You Said You Don't Love Me

But you're trying..

I would cry.

But I was relieved.

Then I cried.

Because it was a dream.

I Want To Be Happy

But not at the expense of someone else's happiness.

Hi. I'm Garbage. And You Are?

I want to be hated

so bad that he'll get mad

and toss me away.


But he's too kind..

way too kind.


I know he'll take all the pain..
and blame himself instead.


But him not knowing

is unfair for him

and yet, him knowing

will break him.


AHHHHH..

I hope I wake up in a dumpsite
in the middle of who knows whereeee

More Dreams Like This Please..

I dreamt of my dogs..

I was playing with them

We were really happy.

And there was one more dog I haven't seen before

I was happy :)

And so was that dog. (*＾v＾*)



If only reality could be this blissful..

I Don't Know What Else I Can Do

I tried talking.

To both of them.

Countless times

Nothing just ever.. connect?

Nothing works out.

We barely manage to work on one,
Three more problems come out.

Why can't they just both be less cunning
and more giving?

How long would this drag out?

I have problems of my own too..


I know I shouldn't really bother at this point

Because really, its all up to them

But they really have to realize,

While all these is all them,
and we kids have little power over it,
as they make it seem to be,

We are the most affected by all these.

The fact that we badly want to end this
And yet we can't
The fact that all we could do is be more understanding
despite how painful it gets.
The fact that we try,
and always only in vain!

I get even more disappointed everyday..

I know. I'm aware.
That beyond me and my brothers' understanding,
They are hurt by this too.

So.. yeahh..

I don't know.

I don't know..

Whatever I'm Feeling,

It's nobody's fault but mine.

He's merely a victim
Of my selfishness and cowardice.

He did nothing wrong
And deserves every bit of happiness
The world could offer
Yet I did him wrong

The least I could do
is to keep and make him happy

And do anything for it.

YOU JUST DON'T GET IT, DO YOU!?

Curtains up right!?

Don't plead to be understood,
That's not the stage you should stood

Whats up with you trying to talk about this!?

This is your fight.
Don't go bringing anyone into it.

Why did you talk!?

What were you expecting?

Nothing can save you from this.

You should have went on with the flow..
No one has to know!

Don't go fishing for pity.

You know well you don't deserve a drop of it.

What are you going to do now?

Don't you wash off your guilt by telling him.

That might relieve you..
But that would break him.

It would've went well
if you just give in
like you said you would.

Now what?

From Time To Time..

I have this dream
Of me

In a different place
With different people
And different situation

From time to time
I'd wonder
If I can live in my dreams
And dream my reality

From time to time
I don't want to see
The line between
What's real and not

Often times
I feel more alive
Than I could ever be
More emotions
Than I could ever have

With my eyes closed
Than with them open

From time to time

I'd wake up empty.

It's Weird..

I don't feel 'me'..

Everything feels unreal

like I'm living someone else's life